I hate life...

[Spam]

So, awhile ago, I made a topic saying I was accepted to Indiana State University, and I also said I was trying to get into the school of music for the Music Business Administration major... well, back in February, I had to go to a percussion audition. I went, and gave the professor a CD of me playing the drums. He said I was an "adequate" drummer, but since I had no prior knowledge to any music theory, or since I didn't know any piano, that it was something that they were taking into consideration. A few weeks later, I got a letter saying I wasn't accepted into the school of music. Big shock, right? So basically, the past nine months just have not gone right for me. There's so much other stuff beyond just this happening, it's not even funny. Basically, this past 3/4 of a year, starting from last July, just have not been very good... so, I've been trying to figure out what else to do besides music. I was thinking film, I was thinking (this might seem totally random) of becoming a detective cop person. I was thinking of a lot of other possibilities. But nothing has sounded so right other then music. I love music, and I think that's my reason for wanting to make it. I want to play drums for the rest of my life, and record music for other aspiring artists who want to do the same thing. I want to start my own record label and give other people a good start. This is the only thing that has ever sounded right to me...

But I'm still trying. I'm now taking drum and piano lessons. For both I have great teachers. My piano teacher, someone I know from my church, is trying to get me through all of it so I know what to do, piano wise for the major. She also asked me to play drums for a recital along with her son and one of his friends. And my drum teacher is just amazing... I haven't seen him play on a set yet, but I can only imagine how awesome he is on it. And I aspire to be that good.

I'm also in three different projects in which I play drums for. I'm in my band, along with two friends. I'm in my brothers band, with two other friends, and I play drums for my church. So I'm hoping I can get some experience from these projects.

So I don't know really. I'll probably be on and off here. Life just seems to be taking it's time, and I'm getting busier by the day. And I'm also graduating this year, so I'm trying to prepare for all of that... senior picture and all that fun junk.

thanks for listening, guys.

FORIAMSPAM!

[Alaric]

Sounds like you're dealing with the situation very well. Nasty roadblocks and otehr unpleasant things happen in everyone's life, and there's not really anything one can do about that. What's important is that, instead of giving up on music or just sitting around moping, you're actively trying to do something about it, in a reasonable, well-thought-out way. which is more than a lot of people do in similar situations. That speaks very well of you.

Good luck.

[ow_tiobe_sb]

Your first few semesters at university could be very eye-opening.  If you attend ISU, don't be afraid to enter the system with an undeclared major.  If there is a curriculum in place that allows you to take a smattering of humanities courses, social science courses, and mathematics and science courses, take a few of each to see what strikes your fancy.  There is no reason to stop practicing the drums, but you may find something equally interesting as music business administration: perhaps it might be law, or molecular biology, or art history--who knows?  Just give yourself a chance (and it seems you are prepared to do so).

When I was at your stage in my senior year, I thought the love of my life was genetics and that I would be a biology major with a minor in psychology.  Instead, I shocked my parents and myself by declaring a dual major in English and Philosophy.  Years later, I am an underpaid and overworked junior faculty member in the English Department of a publish-or-perish-policy university. ;)  In short, don't pin all your hopes on music or music business administration too soon when you might have undiscovered potential, not to mention passion, in other disciplines.

ow_tiobe_sb
Phantom Bunburyist and Fop o' th' Morning

[bat1987]

The most positive thing is that you`re still trying. The easiest thing to do when u fail something is to give up, but you did the right thing-you`re taking piano lessons in order not to repeat the same mistake twice.

You have your dream, and you are persistent, just keep your head straight and go for it!

[Gremlin]

Hey, man, I know how tough it is trying to get accepted into competitive programs; I'm going for a theatre major, myself, so I'm pretty much going to live in a box for the rest of my life. :p  Seriously, dude, keep at it; doing what you love will never let you down.  Of course, OTB's right, and you do have to keep your options open incase you have a revelation that you'd be happy with another calling.  If you wind up doing something like astrophysics, though, how cool would it be to be an astrophysicist that can rock like that?

Keep at it, dude, and best of luck. :thumbup:

[djfredski]

Sound like he hateing to me. :D :D :D :D :P :thumbdown:

GO TIGERS!

[Previsionary]

Sound like he hateing to me. :D :D :D :D :P :thumbdown:

GO TIGERS!

...hating...that's irritating me. Also, wrong thread?

Anyway, spam, sorry to hear about your 3/4ths of a bad year/blah period, but I'd like to echo the thoughts thrown your way already. If you truly have a passion for music, don't let this little setback get you down.

[vamp]

"All men fall, the great ones just get back up"

[The Phantom Eyebrow]

The thread title made me think you might be really down, but it sounds like you're dealing with things very well Spam.  I don't think I can offer any more advice after what's already been offered.  All I can add is a reminder to feel free to use this forum as a sounding board if you need to again, as there is wisdom here amongst the spandex.   

[GogglesPizanno]

The thing about loving music (no matter whether you are good, bad, mediocre etc...) is that its one of those things that you can do regardless of where you go to school, what you do for work, where you are living.

So i guess my advice, is dont let this kind of setback deter you from continuing to pursue music as something you love. You could be anything from a programmer to a burger flipper and then come home at night, and rock out. In a lot of cases, it may make the music part of your life a nice outlet for those other parts of your life you need to escape from. School is about seeing all the different options out there, getting some good social experiences and learning about yourself. Work and a job is a means to an end to enable you to do those things that you want to do (whatever they may be). If those paths converge, you are one of the lucky ones... but just because one doesn't cross over to the other doesn't mean that its not meant to be. Let yourself be defined by everything you do, not just what pays your rent.

I used to work with a lot of playing musicians... every single one of them played gigs after 5pm when they shut their computers off and clocked out from their day jobs. And they were the ones who always seemed to enjoy it most. It was the joy of playing without the stress of trying to survive on it.